The look in the sky and the feel of the air has already changed, you can tell *fall* is here. As November has quickly arrived, to say the least…I sit here in my bed thinking about the year behind me. This time of the year brings on a lot of reflection and goal setting for the new year.
It’s 2am right now and me being awake is a rare sight. But, there was just something inside me that woke me up and pushed me to be a bit vulnerable here on my blog. It’s been months since I’ve logged in and updated my site, but it is such a great relief to note these feelings down. I miss being on here…
When I closed the store in January, I’ll be honest – I cried a lot. A combination of fear of the unknown mixed with a lot of self doubt and worry. Even though I wasn’t walking into the dark with nothing ahead of me, I saw it as yet another big change in my life and it put me through this spiral of emotions I didn’t know when I’d come out of it. I wondered if I could be successful, happy, and strong enough to break barriers and set myself apart from the rest. Fear can be such an ugly thing. But, I was able to push through (thank God) and looking back at it now it was a great resting period for me to shed some emotional and physical baggage before entering a new adventure. And really, just rely on God and what he was calling me to.
I was able to come into this new-er role with a clear mind, new concepts and ideas, overwhelming creative inspiration, and a whole lotta faith.
It reminds me of a caterpillar to butterfly metamorphis. A caterpillar, born small, needing to feed quickly in order to grow as much as it can – but, still without wings. Yet once it goes into its cocoon phase, the intense transformation it goes through is miraculous and, if lucky, results in a beautiful butterfly.
A lot of transformation and obstacles have happened this year, but so have a lot of blessings and opportunities too. I believe I have my wings now and into a really good groove. I know that can come off as really cliche, but I’m really happy where I’m at right now. Am i content? Never. I’m always hungry for more. But am I happy? Incredibly and really looking forward to the holidays. My favorite time of the year.
Side note: for those of you who don’t know what I’m up to these days – I’ve transitioned Spin Gallery from it’s pop-up retail days to a content creation agency. We work with multiple brands on their overall creative direction, social media strategy, brand personality and identity (and more). On our free time, when we’re not creating content for these brands – we get to have some extra fun and build our personal portfolio.